From Masha's diary: «Melvar is an unknown, unattainable, untouchable teacher. At the time, he had this love in him and a desire to wrest me from the abomination of Saint Petersburg, from this swamp of a city. He tortured me with his will, locked me up, tried to break me with his words. I hated him. But due to my inner helplessness I could not take a step without him. And, having run away, having been out, I again returned to my „tormentor-teacher". Then again, I was leaving him as a clean, sinless virgin. He himself bore my sins».